“If you do everything I ask,” he said, “you’ll be able to do the things you love.”
He was my surgeon.
He was my surgeon, and I never dreamed all that he would ask of me. First, of course, THE SURGERY, then seemingly endless rounds of physical therapy – in the water first, graduating to ground, then more work at home.
Harder yet were the things he asked me to REFRAIN from doing.
No running (my beloved early-morning greenbelt runs!)
No jumping or kicking (goodbye Body Combat!)
No weightlifting (What? No Body Pump?)
Honestly, he made a few requests that I couldn’t even understand…
My surgeon asked me not to lift anything heavier than a CUP OF COFFEE for SIX MONTHS.
I did it all. I did everything he asked of me. No exceptions.
I even thanked him.
Even when it was hard, I did it.
Even when I couldn’t see how I was EVER going to attain the desired end goal, I did it.
I did everything he asked of me because I trusted him. I’d done my research. He was the best, and he knew what he was doing. And when it was finished, I could do the things I love. I could run and jump and kick and lift. And hallelujah – no pain!
I’m thinking about all of this today, because I have to do it all over again. The same unlucky genetic roll of the dice that formed my left shoulder formed my right shoulder as well. What I have isn’t working. It has to be replaced with metal and plastic.
And as I’m sitting here reminding myself that if I do all T Bradley Edwards MD asks of me I will be able to do the things I love, a thought occurs to me.
If you were privy to my inner world, you might conclude that I trust T Bradley Edwards more than I trust God.
I mean, Doesn’t God say to me, If you do the things I ask of you, you will be able to do the things you love.
WHY YES. YES HE DOES.
Do I do everything God asks me to do, no exceptions, just like I did for T Bradley Edwards?
WHY NO. NO I DO NOT.
When T Bradley said, “I can do this, but it will take some time,” I accepted it. I didn’t call him every day demanding to know why I wasn’t completely healed yet. I didn’t reproach him for “not understanding” how frustrated I was. I didn’t accuse him of not caring about me. And I didn’t quit on him. Yet I do all these things to God.
WHY? Why was it so easy for me to have faith in T Bradley? I had no real reason to believe he could take my pain away and restore my motion – nothing but words on paper claiming he was one of our nation’s top shoulder replacement surgeons.
Do I not have words on paper making wonderful claims about God? And even more, don’t I encounter God often and see His Good Work?
Why then, when I am in emotional pain, or struggling spiritually, why don’t I trust God like I do T Bradley Edwards?
WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN FAITH IN T BRADLEY EDWARDS AND FAITH IN GOD?
And the answer is…
THERE IS NO DIFFERENCE.
It’s me, guys. It’s all me.
It’s just a CHOICE.
I CHOSE to trust T Bradley Edwards.
And as for God?
You’re right. I need to make better choices. So here’s my new self-growth goal: Trust God AT LEAST AS MUCH as I trust T Bradley Edwards.
(Long-term Goal: MORE THAN )